I don't write on here much anymore. I remember when my kids were smaller and I'd read how "busy" mom's were and I even critiqued them...."I won't do that".... HA! It seriously just happens and it's crazy, it's maddening, it's annoying and it's joyful, it's fun, it's amazing! When we're in school/sports mode...we run every night of the week. It's seriously the best times. By the end of the "season" you're READY for a break but I always look back with the best memories.
We have a dry erase calendar in our utility room, right by our back door. We all walk by it many times a day.
As the days pass, we add to in color codes. Dr.'s appointment, school needs, Michael's meetings....it's usually every color of the rainbow by the time I erase it. I've had a very REAL need to get a hold of our schedules. I have 57 days until surgery.
57 days. Tomorrow is 56.
Major surgery is not always in a persons life. Some can grow nice and old and never enter into a MAJOR surgery. I've had many day procedures. 2 pretty good surgeries (gallbladder and hysterectomy). But in 57 days, I'm entering into a whole new realm of surgery.
I've talked about it often and asked for prayers, but, it was brought to my attention that I've really never shared EXACTLY what is happening.
I know there's a very "technical" term but...I'm having my jaws broken and reset. I'll have 8 L shaped plates and 16 screws placed in my upper and lower. My palate and chin will be manipulated. It will be an 8 hour surgery. I'll be in the hospital a minimum of a day barring no complications. I'll be 6 weeks bound closed, 3 will be with a splint. Liquid diet through a straw.
Those that have paid attention....I have pretty substantial anxiety and panic attacks. Trust me when I say, this has pushed those things to a whole new level.
I had said to me, "you cannot live for October 21st, you'll miss everything until then". When I first heard it, I thought, but I have to mentally get myself to that day. But by constantly working myself up, I'm only living in that day and missing everything else. So, I vowed not to do that.
I've had some big works happening in my heart this summer but especially in the past few weeks. I've been pushed beyond what I felt capable of, making excuses the whole time, but always coming out on the other side. I wish I would quit doubting my inner Wonder Woman.
So my goal in these 57 days....well those blogs are to come ;)
I will ask for prayer. Prayers for peace. Prayers for my surgeons. Prayers for Michael. Prayers for Brody & Raina.
I see more blogs coming. I love my blog and writing has always been therapeutic. Stay tuned....some may be complete meltdowns, some may be daily "I made it through" victories. You just never know what I might bring....welcome to what I call my life! :)
We have a dry erase calendar in our utility room, right by our back door. We all walk by it many times a day.
57 days. Tomorrow is 56.
Major surgery is not always in a persons life. Some can grow nice and old and never enter into a MAJOR surgery. I've had many day procedures. 2 pretty good surgeries (gallbladder and hysterectomy). But in 57 days, I'm entering into a whole new realm of surgery.
I've talked about it often and asked for prayers, but, it was brought to my attention that I've really never shared EXACTLY what is happening.
I know there's a very "technical" term but...I'm having my jaws broken and reset. I'll have 8 L shaped plates and 16 screws placed in my upper and lower. My palate and chin will be manipulated. It will be an 8 hour surgery. I'll be in the hospital a minimum of a day barring no complications. I'll be 6 weeks bound closed, 3 will be with a splint. Liquid diet through a straw.
Those that have paid attention....I have pretty substantial anxiety and panic attacks. Trust me when I say, this has pushed those things to a whole new level.
I had said to me, "you cannot live for October 21st, you'll miss everything until then". When I first heard it, I thought, but I have to mentally get myself to that day. But by constantly working myself up, I'm only living in that day and missing everything else. So, I vowed not to do that.
I've had some big works happening in my heart this summer but especially in the past few weeks. I've been pushed beyond what I felt capable of, making excuses the whole time, but always coming out on the other side. I wish I would quit doubting my inner Wonder Woman.
So my goal in these 57 days....well those blogs are to come ;)
I will ask for prayer. Prayers for peace. Prayers for my surgeons. Prayers for Michael. Prayers for Brody & Raina.
I see more blogs coming. I love my blog and writing has always been therapeutic. Stay tuned....some may be complete meltdowns, some may be daily "I made it through" victories. You just never know what I might bring....welcome to what I call my life! :)
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